adventure

kayaknya hidup ini tanpa petualangan bakalan bosen banget kali yah.. tiap org kyknya butuh deh yg namanya adventures.. well at least i do.. n skarang lg longingg banget for an adventure.. hidup kyknya ginih2 ajah.. -.-" pagi bangun kerja, pulang yah masak nonton tv..weeken maen2 bntr n greja.. akhir taon holiday ke indo.. di jkt plg nge-mall2 doank.. trs balik lagih k sini n the same thing diulang lagih.. ini jadi ginih gara abis ngeliat foto temen gw yg ke flores.. random bgt ga sih ke floress?!?! hahaha.. dia ama temennya b2, trs pake tour guide 1 di sonoh.. trs yg ampe ke desa2, ketemu anak2 kampungg hahaha.. tp deep in my heart i think i'm jealous.. i think i need something like that..

trs ada juga temen gw yg baru ke London ama hubbynya.. OE gitu ceritanya hehee.. so excited for her.. trs Gil kan juga kayak bakalan start a new life soon di SG.. (am happy for u Gil ^^).. gw ..been in oklen for hmm..almost 10 years mungkin kali yahh..jarang lagih keluar nz. hahaha, plg ke indo ama oz 2x.. but dat's it.. n been living in the same place since 2002!! hahaha..

mgkn gw terdengar complaining, but i'm not (pembelaan diri hahaha..) but yah ga komplein sih bener..i'm happy kok di oklen. i feel blessed that i have a job, place to stay, have my hubby with me, n byk alasan2 laennya yg membuat gw bersyukur.. but i miss that adventurous feeling.. the excitement, the mixed feeling of ragu tapi pengen trs maju, feeling of mau mau takut n the feeling of achievement at the end of the journey. feeling of freedom, breaking free etc etc.. hahaha..

i'm a person yg sangat suka kepastian, but at the moment i miss ke-tidakpastian..it makes me strive for more, bikin worried but also expecting somethin bigger..
is it wrong to feel this way? do i even make sense? hajah2.. knapa jadi ginih.. nih mgkn pengaruh hormones jg.. 1st day of the monthly routines... (PMS not helping eitherr!!)
God, help me....