draw me close to You...

Draw me close to You
Never let me go
I lay it all down again
To hear You say that I'm your friend

Help me find a way to bring me back to You

You're all I want, You're all I've ever needed
You're all I want,
Help me know You are near

You are my desire
No one else will do
Cause no one else
Can take You place
To feel the warmth of Your embrace

Help me find a way to bring me back to You

You're all I want, You're all I've ever needed
You're all I want,
Help me know You are near

Lord, I know I have made so much mistakes.. Aku tau aku mungkin ga sebaik or se-holy some of Your other children. Again and again I disappointed You and worse, sometimes I even ignored You. I'm sorry Lord..(again, I know I said this tooooooooooo often) There are times when I think I'm not even worthy of Your love, kadang mikir Tuhan lebih baik Tuhan just use other people yang lebih stabil n lebih holy drpd aku. Mereka pasti lebih effective and less maintenance. However, regardless what happened..I know I need You.. I need You so much, only You can feel this big hollow..

so, just as the song above, that is simple my prayer.. my desire...

...to be close to You again

...to know that I'm still Your friend, regardless what happened

...to know that You are near
cos no one else will do, no one else can take Your place

Sorry Tuhan kalo aku ngerepotin banget..this is a cry from a lost girl, who is trying to find her way back home..
I miss You.. really really miss You! Please let me find You..

***note for the future me kalo gw baca this postingan lagih...
So Lo, you've been down this road before.. IT SUCKSSS!!!! if you ever feel this way again (hopefully never) just get up, pick up the pieces and start again.. tapi kalo bisa sih jangan kayak ginih lagihh.. stop nge-gombalin Tuhan terus...He deserves a lot more than that...