satoe july 2010

The second half of 2010 has officially started..

hope you all have a happy first half of 2010..

ganbate!

random

Pernah nyadar ngga sih kalo kita ini sebernya semuanya sama..
We are all humans, yang mencoba melewati kehidupan ini. We are all trying to make a good living, trying to be accepted, trying to get what we want...cuma beda2 ajah caranya.. beda2 pengalaman hidup yang kita lewati, which at the end ...menjadikan kita orang yg berbeda2..

sometimes how easy for us to easily judge people.. yahh, mungkin kta ga cocok sama dia.. tapi bukan selalu berarti dia salah, kita bener.. the truth is in the eye of the beholder.
kadang kita ketemu orang2 yg super duper unik (again menurut ukuran kta, mungkin dianya mah ngerasa biasa2 ajah), tp kita ngga tau apa yg dia alami sebelumnya yang sudah menjadikan dia sperti itu.. maybe.. just maybe.. if only we had to go thru their life, maybe we would be as 'unique' as they are

some people are major attention seeker..
some people are so arrogant, yet others are so 'minder-an'..
some people are such big fat liars..
some people likes to look good in front people, wearing 'masks' at all times
some people doing good deeds, maybe because they want to redeem their mistakes in the past
some people look so mean and bad, but turns out they have the softest heart
some people are so quiet, but turns out they are the smartest, most fun people ever

we don't know.. we never know i guess.. siapa sih yang bisa tau isi hatinya manusia, we can only assume..

we are all the same.. we are all humans who try to live a life.. what is it that actually makes us so different?? aside from what we're going thru and how we response to it..

if only love can be easily given as it is easily said...

lunch

Today, this is wat i had for lunch...

Tadi pas nyiap2in, gw ngerasa kok ada yg aneh kayaknya.. Setelah berpikir2, i think i know. Kapan itu kalo ga salah gw pernah baca di web kesehatan, or mgkn nonton acara TV, or baca majalah.. katanya kalo ga salah.. half of our plate should be vegies, then meat, carbo, etc2.. liat donk piring lunch gw.. nasi setengah piring.. ayam n bumbu sate (kacang, kecap manis n santan).. baru yg secuil lagi my vegies. O M G!! i think i need to change my eating habit... -.-"

but anyhoo on a brighter side..nasi kuningnya gw yg bkn loh td malemm..Ho3.. Mungkin buat yg suka masak mikirnya, 'hmm bkn nasi kuning ajah bangga..gampang gituh..' but well i'm pretty proud karena kemaren itu pertama kali gw bikin n ternyata memang gampang hahahaa.. *tapi tetep ajah seneng*

duh kalo yg mo tau yah.. nasi kuning gw itu cuma.. nasi dikasih tumeric (sbg pewarna)..nah udah tuh masukin rice cooker.. btw, airnya jangan byk2.. pas udah jadi tunggu sbentar krg lebih 5 menit-an trs pelan2 masukin coconut cream and aduk. (makanya aernya pertama kali jangan banyak2 ntar jadi kelembekan).. kasih garam merica dikit..jadi deh tuh si nasi kuning. =) gampang kan..

buat satenya juga gampang, bumbunya jg gampang.. Kalo ada yg mo tau, kasih tau yah..ntr gw tulisin.. enak kok jadinya ^^ *promosi*

anyway, back to my main point, i need to re-assess my way of eating -.-"

that is sooo youu...

Kemaren baru baca di blognya Lie kalo dia pick me to decide the next theme. Awal2nya bingung, terus berhubung dah malem, jadi dibawa tidur deh ahhahaa..
Tadinya mo kasih tema 'buah' hahaha..cuma kayaknya agak complicated.. but then i came up with something else..(pencerahan sebelum tidur)

tema minggu ini adalah...'that is soooo yooouu!!!!'
Well, mnurut aku, almost evry single one of us punya ciri khas tersendiri.. sadar ato ga sadar... Ada temenku yg sangat identik dng knitted jacket, ada satu lagi identik sama motif kotak2.. kayaknya kalo liat baju2 di toko tuh, ada ajah saat2 di mana kluar kata2 'ahh ini mah si A banget' ato 'bagus sih cuma ngga mau beli ah..ini kan si B banget'
So minggu ini..let us share who we are (fashion wise)..kalo boleh nyolong bahasanya pink-buble mah..'show the inner you' hihihi...

Agak gampang2 susah i think..
Gampang karena bajunya pasti kita punya.. afterall itu kan kita banget gitu lohh..harusnya tipe baju model itu kta punya sejibuk..
Susah karena... mgkn bbrp kita ngga tau apa sih benernya yg 'kita banget' ituh..jadi hrs research deh..nanya ke org2 terdekat..

Hm... temanya agak2 freestyle sihh.. i hope tema ini diperbolehkan sama panitia.. hehee..
(PS. panitia kalo temanya terlalu broad, please let me know and i'll choose something else..)

Kalo emang kalian ngga identik sama sesuatu apapun.. mungkin bisa milih satu outfit yg you think represents who you really are and of course, don't forget to explain to us why that outfit represents you..

Gimana2?? I'm welcoming any thoughts/inputs..... ^^

satisfaction in life...

does such a thing exist???

or is it human nature to always wanting more and more and never be satisfied??

always find someting to complaint and never be satisfied??

take a bow

Kata Lie, tema minggu ini adalah take a bow. Pertama gw agak bingung tapi pengertian gw adalah fashion yg ada hal2 berbau bentuk yg dasi kupu2 itu lohh..am i making sense? gw bener ga sih lie pengertiannya?

well, aniwei..berdasarkan pengertian itu..this is what i came up for this week.. (skalian penebusan minggu lalu yg tema kotak2. hohoho..abis kan last week krg puas..)

** Top and shoes: Mangga 2 **

** Cardigan: Glassons **

** Celana: salah satu toko di Gading Mall **

** Stocking: Jays Jays **

Nah untuk unsur bow-nya itu actually ada di top n shoesnya.. below is a zoom for you..

Nah, any insights for my outfit today?? anything to be improved?? :)

PS. akhir2 ini aku suka cegukan nih ..ga tau knapa..ada yg punya ide ga kira2 knapa n cara pengobatan cegukan yg baik n benar hahahaha ?

resep nastar

guyss...inget ga sih bbrp minggu yg lalu gw bikin nastar?

nah buat yang tertarik, gw dapet resepnya dr blognya Angie.. (gw br ngeh ternyata gw sama skali ga kasih reference apa2 -.-). Kalian kalo mo bikin, pake resep ini aja deh. enak n gampang banget buat diikutin. Ga ribet sama skali. Gw ajah yang biasa bikin kue gagal *menyedihkan*, kali ini sangat berhasil utk 1st try and bentuknya bagus hahahha.. Itu yg paling membuat gw senang..

Oiya, trs wktu itu juga gw dpt masukan dr si empunya resep, utk cornflournya sama coklat bubuk and isinya dikasih white choc n peanuts diancurin.. gw sih ngebayanginnya jg dah enak, coklat gitu lohh!! ktnya sih rasanya kayak ferero rocher..hmmm jadi makin tertarik nyoba! i think nxt try it's gonna be that!!!

Thank you yahh G buat resepnya... ^^

armpit hair, bulu idung and heartbeat

1. armpit hair dan bulu idung

Beberapa hari lalu, me n mr.A somehow got to talk about armpit hair. To be honest gw benernya becandain dia kl gw mo manjangin my armpit hair biar bisa balapan ma dia punya *aahhh mallluuu* Tentu saja, dia langsung menolak the idea mentah2. Gw juga ngga serius sih benernya -.-" gila ajehhh

Gw pake bahasa armpit hair ajah yah, ngga tau knapa kalo tulis bahasa indonesiannya kayaknya jadi lebih agak jijay. hahaha.. Nah terus kita jadi ngebahas kalo armpit hair itu ngga ada yang pernah tumbuh sampai panjang gitu yah kayak rambut di kepala kita, so as bulu idung and alis mata. Our creator kita ituh emang super duper ajaib ^^ Bahkan sampai hal2 sekecil ini ajah Dia perhatikan n Dia buat all the other hair ngga sama kayak rambut kepala. Kalo rambut kepala kan bisa sampe panjang banget tuh!! Saudara-i, bisa bayangin ngga sih kalo armpit hair kita ato bulu idung kita yang bisa panjang kayak rambut kepala??? BAH.. gw bisa ngga mo keluar rumah, horor!!! How scary it is!!!! Somehow kalo udah sampai panjang tertentu, bulu2 tersebut bisa berenti tumbuh sendirinya.

Tuhan, terima kasih Engkau sudah memperhitungkan smuanya. Kalo misalnya Engkau bahkan memperhatikan n mempersiapkan my armpit hair/bulu hidung; I believe You also already prepare everything else yang lebih major =) I should not worry about anything..

2. heartbeat (denyut nadi)

Kemaren itu aku bobo dipeluk mr.A.. jadi kan kedengeran tuh denyut nadinya dia..deg deg..deg deg..deg deg.. Then, one thing came in my head, this heartbeat sound is actually one of the best sound that exists in the world. WHY? because it is a sign that we're living..

Kalo misalnya ada orang yang skarat di rumah sakit, that 'deg deg..deg deg..' sound is one of the sound that people are looking for.. drpd bunyi 'bbbbbbiiiiiiippppp..' which means that person already died.. (ini bacanya harus penuh imajinasi..banyak sound efeknya =p)

Ato kayak ibu2 hamil, well..menurut yang di film/orang2 crita/novel (abis gw belon ngalamin sendiri sih yah); stelah cek up pertama n stelah kedengeran tuh denyut nadi si janin, naluri keibuannya pasti kluar n sgalanya jadi berubah. N yang di film, biasa langsung nangis2.. Kalo again the baby's heartbeat ngga ada, malah orang2 bisa lebih stress..

Simple banget yah padahal sebenernya.. 'deg deg... deg deg... deg deg...'; but it's one very important sound that every living person should have...

Aku lagih bener2 amazed ajah nih.. kayaknya banyak sekali hal2 kecil yang sebenernya kalo lagi 'bohlam moment', kita baru bener2 bisa menyadari betapa besar berartinya hal2 tersebut...

nasi hainan (or hainam?!)

Aku selalu berpikir nama makanan ini nasi hainam..tp ternyata hainan yah? duh ga ngerti deh..Pokoknya yg pasti menu malam ini adalahhh.... yah yang di atas ituh..


Cara masaknya sebenernya sangat gampang...

Nasinya:

tumis bawang putih secukupnya.. kalo doyan yah dibanyakin, kl buat perasa doank yah ga usah terlalu banyak. Kemudian masukkan beras yang sudah dicuci. Kasih kecap asin, garam dan merica. Aduk2 sebentar, kemudian masukkan ke rice cooker; masak dengan air kaldu.
**Hari ini aku kerajinan coba tumisnya pake minyak ayam drpd minyak goreng biasa. Cara bikin minyak ayam, ambil bagian kulit and minyak2 dari paha (biasanya) dan taruh di atas penggorengan panas. Nanti minyaknya keluar sendiri.

Ayamnya:

Kali ini aku masak pake paha (as per picture). Sebagai persiapan, rajang bawang putih secukupnya; Campur dengan kecap asin, jahe (yang udah dirajang juga atau mau pake bubuk jg gpp), garam, merica. Lumuri ayam dengan campuran ini, biarkan selama beberapa saat (marinate). Setelah itu, kukus ayam sampai matang. Nah selama dikukus ini, biarkan smua minyak dr ayam turun ke air yang di bawahnya, krn air inilah yang nanti akan jadi kuah (so, taro air di bawahnya agak banyakan aja.
Setelah ayam empuk dan ngga ada darah artinya ayam siap disajikan
Untuk kuah, bisa dicoba rasanya dan ditambah garam or merica or kecap asin as required; dan juga ditambah irisan spring onion

Sambalnya:

Aku sih pake cabe besar 7 biji, ditambah 1/2 (setengah) tomat. Rebus ini sebentar. Setelah itu blender cabe dan tomat dengan bawang putih sampai halus. Terakhir tambahkan sedikit garam untuk perasa.

**Oya karena hari ini lagi kerajinan, aku juga goreng irisan bawang putih buat terakhir ditaro di atas ayam & nasi.. enak deh.. biar ada somethin extra aja :)

Sorry yah kalo aku nulis resepnya seadanya, abis aku emang kalo masak freestyle. Secukupnya, seenaknya, dan apa yg ada di lemari dapur.. Tapi yah ngga yang keluar jalur amat2 sih. So, kayak ini aku ga bisa kasih ukuran apa2. Kadang ajah kalo udah masak sekali dan enak, belom tentu bisa disuruh ulang lagi. Hahahaha..

Tapi buat yang baru masak, don't worry. I believe everything comes from learning and trial error, but most importantly from the heart. Kalo emang kita memasak untuk orang yang kita sayang n mau memberikan yg terbaik, pasti makanannya enak. Nah (ini bagian terpenting), kalo yang udah dimasakin bawel n complaint2 tiada henti, dengan muka judes bilang ajah ke dia 'udah bagus dimasakkin, kalo bawel mendingan ga usah makan deh...' =p

sekian dan terima kasih.. ^^

me n perkedel

Perjalanan gw n perkedel goes a long way back. I didn't remember whether was a big fan of perkedel or not when I was little, but sejauh gw inget, beberapa taon yang lalu gw mulai tertarik with this food called perkedel hahaha. abis enak sih..
Nah semenjak gw skolah d luar negri, and apalagi mulai tinggal di aprtemen sendiri kan jadi mau ga mau masak.. and this one time gw pengen banget bikin perkedel abis kayaknya gampang.

Dasar gw ga bisa masak, my 1st attempt at perkedel, gw rebus kentangnya.. (krn gw pikir kan itu kyk mashed potato campur kornet). Ends up, itu potato kelembekan n so perkedel is gagal. Terus ke2 (setelah nanya2 ke ibu2/oma2 cara memasak perkedel yg baik dan benar), gw mencoba pake red potato n digoreng kentangnya. To be honest at 1st my head can't get around it..but akhirnya jadi.. ok lah at least.. Oh tp agak2 perjuangan krn tiap kali nge-goreng somehow minyak gw berbusa tingkat tinggi. Annoyed but I thought it was normal.. Sebener2nya cara2 yg pake digoreng ini kentangnya kadang berhasil kadang gagal.. krn masih agak kelembekan kentangnya.. Gw sampe being a 'smartass', gw masukin dl campuran kentang n kornet ke kulkas/freezer supaya keras hahahaa...
Pokoknya there were so many ups n downs deh between me n perkedel. Everyday we met, I learned something new. I even remembered once, kita akhirnya makan perkedelnya ancur2, jadi kayak cuma campuran mashed potato n kornet karena emang udah bener2 ga bisa diselematkan. -.-"

Yesterday, finally, me n perkedel comes into agreement!! hahaha. I finally know how to treat it properly... sooo this is what I use

6 potatos
1 kaleng kornet
garam, merica secukupnya
garlic secukupnya
2-3 telur; dipisah kuning n putihnya
a pinch of kaldu ayam
minyak goreng buat ngegoreng

then...
1.kupas potatos, potong kecil2 and kukus selama maybe 15-30 minutes. pokoknya cek ajah sampai agak lembek tp jangan terlalu lembek. You don't want to put it to long, selama sampe bisa gampang di-mash ajah
2. setelah jadi 'mashed potato', masukin kornet, garlic, garam, merica, dan kuning telur. Aduk semuanya sampe rata. If you want, you can even taste it krn kan sebenernya semuanya dah mateng anyway. Atau yah coba potato-nya aja hahaha.. If you're happy with it, leave it aside for a while
3. Panasin minyak sampai panas
4. Bentuk adonan bulat pipih (yah kayak bentuk perkedel gitu), celupin ke putih telur, then masukin ke minyak panas.
5. Yang tunggu dan balik sampai both sides kecoklatan; angkat dan tiriskan.

voila, your perkedels are ready to eat :)

kalo gw sih senengnya makan pake potongan rawit n kecap manis.. yuuummm

akhirnya gw menemukan knapa minyak gw dulu berbusa..karena gw ngebungkus terakhirnya pake kocokan kuning n putih telur..harusnya pake putih telur ajah!! so happy!! trs gw senengnya pake resep ini karena less minyak! kalo yang kentangnya digoreng kan itu udah berminyak skali, belom stelah dibentuk, ntar di deep fried lagi. so at least with this one, we only fry it once..less oil.
yang bikin seneng k2 krn mr.A loves it! haha..it's not easy to please him about food haha..he knows it a lot more than I do.. but kemaren dia susah banget berenti nge-gado-in perkedelnya. woohhooo.. happy husband, happy wife ^^ (and vice versa of course)

kotak-kotak

as the others, gw punya banyak banget baju kotak2.. apalagih baju kotak2 kan kpn itu smpet nge-trend, jadi sejauh mata memandang...adanya baju kotak ajah.. but this week lagih ga mood buat playing dress up, so i just take an easy outfits hahaha..

sorry for the picture quality, gw ngambil sendiri di kaca rumah n kacanya ga gede sama skali >.<>

** jacket: a shop in slyvia park (lupa namanya) **
** celana: the executive **
** heels: hannahs **

aku sebenernya ngerasa kok ada yang aneh yah sama bawahannya haha.. clananya kayk ngegantung kalo di foto.. pdhl kl di beneran I THINK ga se-aneh di foto ahhaa.. tp yah pemikiran gw sgt amat bsa salahhh.. -_-"

so there you go kotak2 for this week ;)

hope you all will have a great week. ^^ happy monday!!

lesson

today i learn that....

money can NOT buy back time
money can NOT buy memories

so use the time you have wisely,
create unforgettable memories that you will cherish for the rest of your days
because time will not stop, it will keep going..
and it will be too late when you realize that all you have..is just REGRETS!

stop using money as excuses
...work a little bit more
...save a little bit more
be wise and remember..for every decision, there's a price to pay; is it more irreplaceable than money?

nostalgia..

kmaren ini pas lagi jalan pulang kantor, tiba2 teringat semua hmm..ke-'naive'-an gw dlm merancang hidup inih .. hahaha.. gw sih benernya dr dulu bukan org yang bener2 napsu2 banget buat get married n stuffs, biasa ajah lah..but i like to plan for my future hubby n life..

dulu di kls comp sci yang super duper boring, gw happened to sit next to arip (cowonya El) n gw happened to write syarat2 my future husband di organiser dia..hahaha..ntr dia kalo balik ke oklen mo gw minta ah copynya.. mo gw bandingin sama my real husband.. haha.. gw sih wktu itu nulis krg lebih 30 syarat kali hahaa..some makes sense some doesn't.. bbrp di antaranya...

- cinta Tuhan
- jujur dan setia
- di atas garis kekayaan
- pintar memasak
- huggable and kissable
- cocok tidak cocok tetep mencocokkan diri dng gw (maksa.. ha3)
- bisa bela diri jd bsa membela gw
- bisa berinsiatif (dlm membelikan hadiah n do houseworks terutama)
- pinter yg maen lempar2an kalo pas di pasar malem.. hahaha..biar gw bisa dapet boneka yg gede2 gituh kalo ke acara gituan..
- humoris
- pintar

benernya msh banyak tp dah lupa smua euy for some reasons. haha. nah wktu itu gw blg jg kalo my future hubby at least harus pass this list 80% (dah kyk ujian ajah) n to be honest, I don't think I'm doing that bad :) Andre is a dream comes true for me ^^

trs gw juga dah plan my days after gw nikah n punya anak.. so, rencananya. pagi2 kita akan sit together n have bre8fast, trs yah hubby goes to work n gw drop anak2 ke skolah. Abis itu gw jg kerja, tp mgkn part time krn gw pengen bisa jmput anak gw when they finish school, which i assume will be around 3ish. So I pick the children, then we can go to supermarket and do shopping for dinner. Abis itu selese, depend on age, mungkin kita bisa maen2 ke taman dulu.. atau kl mreka mo les, yah paling mreka ga ikut blanja n gw drop d tmpt les. Jadi kan selesainya brg tuhh.. After itu smua mungkin jam 5an gw balik lah, siapin dinner. Again, cooking will be done together hahaha.. biar bonding.. Nah gw assume hubby jam 5.30 or 6an dah sampe rumah. Stlh dinner ready, kita makan brg, no TV.. sambil crita2 about our days. Finish dinner smua bantu beberes n siap2 ngerjain tugas/kerjaan. Gw sih pengennya kta punya library di rumah.. spy jadi smua kerjain PR n belajar di situ.. ga di kamar masing2 hahaha. stelah smua beres, nonton TV dehh kitaaa... Jam 9 or 10an anak2 masuk kamar n gw have my time with my husband. hahaha.. gw tau mungkin ini smua ga terlalu bsa dilakukan kalo anak2 dah gede but makanya hrs dibiasain dr kecil..
Hmm waktu gw ceritakan khayalan ini ke org2 yg dah married lama n punya anak, mreka cuma geleng2 kepala sambil kyk senyum2 kasian. ahhaa.. mgkn mreka pkr..'nih anak kecil naive bgt sih.. u don't know what's coming ur way girl' hihihi.. BUT ah who cares.. gw tau kok reality mungkin ga seindah khayalan/dreams gw. n mgkn ini smua rencana2 gw ga akan terjadi.. tapi kalo skarang ajah bermimpi ada batasan2nya, itu namanya bkn bermimpi lagih, itu namanya kenyataan!!! so that's the plan for my future weekdays..

trs apalagi yah..oo nama anak.. hihi.. gw bahkan sudah berangan2 urutannya.. jadi pertama 2 cowo n 1 cwe..biar kokonya bisa nge-gebet temen adeknya n adeknya bsa nge-gebet temen kokonya. haha.. trs kan kalo koko gituh lebih protective ama adek cewenya.. (FYI: update news- skrg rencana jadinya 2 anak ajah; krn kan status berubah jadi rencana berubah..ahaha not my plan anymore but OUR plan). okeh..jadi waktu dl gw mikirnya buat anak cowok: Emmanuel (panggilannya NOel); Nathanael or Jonathan (pokoknya panggilannya Nathan), Gabriella (panggilannya Ella)..somehow gw lebih suka nicknamesnya mreka tho.. hahaa..

soo..there you goo.. my crazy ideas when i was younger hahaha.. we'll see how reality turns out.. ;)

athletes

In the spirit of many big sport events (world cup and NBA finals game 7 is todayy!!!!), i want to write something about athletes.. my hubby is a sport freak. It amazes me how much he knows about athletes, apalagih pemaen bola bo..dr jaman jebot jg dia lumayan tau.. jd mau ga mau gw ngikutin deh..

This thoughts actually have come to my mind so many times. Gw admire sportsmen/women a lot..WHY? for so many reasons!!!!

1. Their determination, persistent and hard work
Quotenya yang dipake Kobe Bryant "A dream doesn't become reality through magic; it takes sweat, determination and hard work" Athletes ga cuma kerja waktu ada pertandingan, they 'work' hampir setiap saat! Mereka harus do their training evry day for hours and most probably trainingnya mayoritas sama terus.. kl pemaen bola yah nendangin bola terus kali, terus kalo pemaen basket yah latihan masukin bola ke hoop-nya, pemaen golf practise their swing, etc etc. Mereka ga boleh bosen because kalo mreka slack, mreka ga bisa get better. Apalagih pasti banyak olahragawan2 baru yang udah perhatiin cara mreka maen n cariin kekurangannya mreka.

Ada temenku yang dulu mau jadi pemain tenis professional, dia TIAP HARI bangun pagi, mulai dr lari ga tau brp kilo, terus latihan strength, terus latihan mukul, dst dst. Selain itu dia juga harus jaga makanannya dia, ngga bisa seenaknya. Dia tuh sampe kita dah jarang banget ketemu. Stiap kali ditanya pasti lagi latihan. Sayangnya at the end of the day, dia memutuskan untuk do something else and not follow thru with his tennis. Terus ada juga orang-orang lain yang gw tau, abis latihan mreka ga enak2 ajah terus dipijitin dll. Ada beberapa yang abis latihan masih musti beres2 barang2 yang mereka pake etc etc.

So, just as the quote above... "A dream doesn't become reality through magic; it takes sweat, determination and hard work" That is how an athelete operates

2. Never give up just like that
Pernah denger ceritanya kemaren NZ All Whites ngelawan Slovakia? Gol nya NZ baru terjadi menit ke 93 and official soccer game is for 90 minutes (+perpanjangan). Mungkin bbrp orang kalo di kasusnya NZ teams, udah males ajah..udah lah kalah deh game ini, do better on next one.. TAPI an athlete ga bisa kayak gituh.. until the whistle blows, they need to keep fighting and perform; because hey..things happen. Atau pernah ga denger di basketball game, where the last throw makes all the difference. That particular throw can turn a loser becomes the winner, can turn tears into laughters and vice versa. An athelete never give up until the game is finished. and even if they loose, they just have to move on, train harder, be better and 'fight' again in the next game

I love to hear stories when underdogs win the game. It shows to me that anything can happen to those who work hard and believe hard!

3. team work (in team sports of course)
Ngga banyak team yang semua pemaennya hebat. Paling biasa satu or dua..and actually justru team yang pemaennya smua hebat jarang win the throphy because kebanyakan dari mereka maunya maen sendiri, doing their own thing which obviously not going to work in a team sport. I like my husband's saying..'A player might win a game but a player can NOT win the throphy/the league' They need to learn to accept and working with each other. Kadang ada yang udah kerja keras banget and ngoper bola ke temennya, ehh temennya doesn't do a good execution, ya udah deh.. harus rela.. ga boleh marah2 ga jelas.. coba lagi. I love watching a team sport where everyone can work together, the game automatically becomes more interesting to watch. There is no I in a team..

4. Good mentality (most of them haha..)
Sehebat2nya seorang pemaen.. walopun semua orang dah bilang dia pemaen paling jago sedunia, dia harus tetep patuh sama manager/coachnya. Waktu dulu yah pernah nonton 1 game bola Inter vs sapa gituh..There was this one good player at the time, but for some reason he didn't perform well jadi di-substitute kan.. Masa dia ngambek donk marah2 gara2 diganti -.-" HAYAHHH!!! yah makanya seorg olahragawan have to have a good mental state. Apalagi pemain2 yang jago, misalnya Roger Federer.. everyone, I mean everyone pasti dah pengennya dia menang on every single games. Apalagi kalo dia sampe dikalahin sama pemain2 cupu kan malu juga.. Dia pemaen paling hebat gitu loh.. Bayangin the pressure that he has!! If he can't control that, he might as well just say good bye to the game. I have a few friends yang kalo kita maen tenis bareng, tinggal dipanas2in ajah.. dikata2in dikit..udah deh nanti dia napsu2 sendiri and bikin kesalahan sendiri..

One thing I can learn from this.. self control is very important. If you can control it, most probably you can control the game.

So itu benernya cuma beberapa reasons knapa gw mengagumi olahragawan hebat. I need to learn a lot from them..

PS. buat yg ngga tau, foto di atas itu...Lionel Messi, Kobe Bryant, and Roger Federer ^^

draw me close to You...

Draw me close to You
Never let me go
I lay it all down again
To hear You say that I'm your friend

Help me find a way to bring me back to You

You're all I want, You're all I've ever needed
You're all I want,
Help me know You are near

You are my desire
No one else will do
Cause no one else
Can take You place
To feel the warmth of Your embrace

Help me find a way to bring me back to You

You're all I want, You're all I've ever needed
You're all I want,
Help me know You are near

Lord, I know I have made so much mistakes.. Aku tau aku mungkin ga sebaik or se-holy some of Your other children. Again and again I disappointed You and worse, sometimes I even ignored You. I'm sorry Lord..(again, I know I said this tooooooooooo often) There are times when I think I'm not even worthy of Your love, kadang mikir Tuhan lebih baik Tuhan just use other people yang lebih stabil n lebih holy drpd aku. Mereka pasti lebih effective and less maintenance. However, regardless what happened..I know I need You.. I need You so much, only You can feel this big hollow..

so, just as the song above, that is simple my prayer.. my desire...

...to be close to You again

...to know that I'm still Your friend, regardless what happened

...to know that You are near
cos no one else will do, no one else can take Your place

Sorry Tuhan kalo aku ngerepotin banget..this is a cry from a lost girl, who is trying to find her way back home..
I miss You.. really really miss You! Please let me find You..

***note for the future me kalo gw baca this postingan lagih...
So Lo, you've been down this road before.. IT SUCKSSS!!!! if you ever feel this way again (hopefully never) just get up, pick up the pieces and start again.. tapi kalo bisa sih jangan kayak ginih lagihh.. stop nge-gombalin Tuhan terus...He deserves a lot more than that...

big hollow..

somehow..feel so empty lately
like there's a big hollow in me and i really wish i know how to fix it
..feel blank..like dead inside..
tried so many things but somehow it is still there..
what to do oh what to do...

T_T

**wrote this ages ago, tp somehow keinget and dibaca lagih.. still learning to really understand this and live it...i think at the moment i'm just at the stage of 'lost in life'..**

Di saat aku pikir aku temukan kebahagiaan,
ternyata tangis yang kutemukan
Di saat aku pikir aku sudah bertemu kepastian,
ternyata ragu jg kutemukan di jalan yang sama
Di saat aku pikir aku mencapai kesuksesan,
ternyata more and more masalah yang harus kuhadapi

Semuanya adalah kebohongan, semuanya adalah semu
Bila kuraih itu semua tanpaMu

Akhirnya aku sadari..
Saat aku mencari dan menemukan Engkau,
aku juga akan bertemu kebahagiaan dan kepastian dan kesuksesan
Afterall, You're all I need ..
Please please please....let me know You are here..

stripes

ok..akhirnya gw taro nih postingan juga..
stelah slama beberapa wktu mengagumi dr kejauhan (he2..dah kyk apaan ajah) n berpikir2, akhirnya gw mencoba ngikutin fashion chroniclesnya pinkbuble. haha.. sempet ga pede bgt, smp minta konsultasi seseorang *thanks el* and komennya dia 'post it!' .. ini benernya buat yang minggu lalu, temanya stripes..

**top/dress: mangga dua**
**legging: mangga dua**
**boots: number 1 shoes warehouse**

sorry yah kalo fotonya ga jelas abis pake HP n gw kurang bisa edit2 photo.. next thing on the list to learn :)

seneng juga sih yah ternyata, jadi memotivasi buat lebih gaya cos gw tuh orangnya males bgt milih2 baju..apalagih org2 nz yang laen juga nyantai2 ajah..paling jeans, kaos, jaket kalo dingin. tapi bbrp minggu lalu abis ketemu stylist gitu (lagih ada spesial di mal) trs dikasih tau tipe badan gw and tipe baju2 yg cocok.. terus juga baca di majalah, si bradley cooper ama renee zellsweger..si brad complaint2 gara2 renee seringnya pake gyming clothes trs..n brad bosen. trs yg kayak 'where is the sexy renee that I know?' gitu2 deh..
so sdikit resolusi tambahan taon ini..gw sedikit mo lebih gaya, ga mau over the top juga tho..so i guess..looking forward for next week.. i guess..

ps. baju2 yg di foto ari ini gw pake ke kantor, n satu temen gw gives me a compliment. so happy :)

lasagna

teruntuk kamu yang di singapore.. hehehe.. ;p

lasagna is one of my cooking yang lumayan disukain orang.. (in total cuma ada 3 masakan khas gw -.-"), yg laen standard2 ajah ..hahaha..
anyway, resep lasagna yang biasa gw pake sangatlah gampang..
bumbu pasta intant (biasa sih gw pake watties or apapun yg lagi diskon ha3).. trs ikutin resepnya itu buat daging brp banyak.. biasa sih gw pake krg lebih:
1. 900g minced beef
2. bumbu pasta 2x420 gr(2 kaleng)..
3. 2 onions; dipotong kira2..
4. keju parut secukupnya
5. lasagna sheets

soo..
* pertama oseng2 onionnya bentar, trs masukin minced beef..
* aduk2 bentar trs kasih garam sama merica..trs masak lagih sampe brown.
* pas udah brown masukin bumbu pastanya aduk2 sampe mulai mendidih.
* smentara itu rendem lasagna sheet di air panas.
kalo itu smua udah jadi, siapin loyang..
* mulai dengan naro daging dulu..kasih keju parut secukupnya trs taro lasagna sheet sampe nutupin.. do the same thing again, daging, keju and lasagna sheet.. do secukupnya 2-3 lapis..
* untuk yang paling atas cuma taro bumbu daging and keju yang banyak.
* masukin ke oven untuk di-bake. mungkin skitar 177 drajat.. liatin ajah trs jangan sampe gosong.. mungkin 30 menitan lahh.. aku ga yakin soalnya kan tiap oven beda2 yahh.. abis itu voila..jadi deh.. :) gampang kann..

nah ari ini, aku masak lasagna lagih..cma terakhir kali masak si andre yg complain karena terlalu meaty n kok ga ada cheese saucenya (gw baru tau ari ini tyta namanya bechamel sauce.. hahaa)..jd-lah hari ini terpaksa nyari resep lasagna yg beneran (yang dulu kan lumayan self invention).. jadilah aku coba masak pake resep dr website ini.
ingredients yang gw pake..

*minced beefnya ktinggalan difoto -.-*
oh sama hari ini masak pake dolmio krn lg diskon n watties ga diskon -.-"

terus cara masak laennya sama seperti biasa, cuma gw bikin ada cream sauce/ricotta saucenya..

*jadi hari ini susunannya daging, pasta sheet, ricotta sauce, keju parut, daging, pasta sheet lagih etc etc..persis kayak di resep website*

pas udah beres penyususannya..dipanggang...again as per website.. n inilah hasilnya..



menurut gw sih ini agak gosong yahh abis tadi sambil nonton tv.hihihi.. pas mau makan agak deg2an juga sih..don't know what to expect.. tp ternyata not too bad lah.. Gw sih tapi benernya masih lebih suka resep yang biasa.. tapi Andre lebih suka yang ini, less meaty dan less asin rasanya karena diseimbangkan dng ricotta sauce yang netral (quote dr dia..gw mah ngga ngerti dah yang begini2an..)

so which one to cook..i think dpends who you cook it for..kalo org yg dimasakin dmen daging..yah mending masak resep gw yg biasa ajah. tp kalo ga mau terlalu banyak dagingnya n pengen ada rasa2 laen..pake resep website..

sori yahh kalo ini petunjuknya ga jelas.. abis ga biasa sih suruh nulis resep..jadi agak bingungg.. tapi i'm happy to answer any questions :)

bon apetite... =)

dream

lanjutan dr yang kemaren postingan adventure n ditambah postingan bombie yang ternyata mengalami hal yang sama dng saya, akhirnya gw menulis postingan inih. Am I still in the same state as few days ago? I might say so, eventho I feel a lot better now.
So, what happen in these few days with regards to dreams?

Kemaren ini gw dengerin podcastnya si Joel Osteen, ada satu yg judulnya 'It's never to late to get started' n thank God itu nguatin gw banget. I need that badly!! Jujur lately gw somehow ngerasa tua banget, ngerasa dah telat lah ngapa2in, n apalagih ditambah dah nikah, jd kan apa2 harus banyak perhitungan..dah ga sendiri lagih. BUT I was wrong.. itu smua cuma alesan gw ajah..setelah dipikir2 lagih, I don't think I'm that old old.. terus juga baca blognya Arman - Life begins at 30.. I'm not even 30 yet!!! hehehe..*menghibur diri* Intinya it's not to late to get started... trs urusan nikah.. emang lah ga segampang dulu wktu single, gw ga bisa pindah kota/negara se-enak jidat gw but still it's not an excuse..it's not too late to get started!! I can bloom wherever I'm planted.. The key is me..do I want to do somethin different or not.. do I want get out of my comfie zone or not..

Lalu yg kedua, kmaren pas baca buku renungan eh ga disengaja-sengaja..topic hari itu adalah ttg 'What's your Dream?' (gilaa yah bisa pas gituh.. ) ngebahas 2 important principles: Keep your dream alive and Dream again, only bigger..When it seems that your dream is gasping its last breath, keep believing God; you're closer to giving birth (to your dream) than you've ever been!

so, what is the conclusion...
I can't blame my situation of not feeling hmm 'right', no adventure etc etc. emang mungkin gw ga bisa pindah kota utk saat inih, or I can't do anything but bukan berarti gw ga bisa do somethin here, with what i have.. God didn't put me here by mistake..

Bombiieeee.. so I guess kta harus melangkah..try somethin new cos otherwise we'll stuck here.. at least you know your passion/dreams which is to dance again.. gw masih agak2 blank hahaa. *gila yah gw ga tau passion gw sendiri apa.. hahahaha..-.-" ato ato..lo kan suka amrik..napa ga coba daftar kerja di amrik, nothin to loose.. you'll never kno wat u'll get.. in the meantime, gw akan mencari2 n mencoba2 banyak hal.. at least i'm trying until i find what i really really want..ayo bie..we do this together!!! =) not easy, but every little steps will count..

on the touch of dreams, i want to share about this special someone who pursue his dream and I admire him so much..bukan nepotism but this guy is my husband.. so, dia di Indo dah ada usaha kluarga, smua dah beres tinggal jalanin ajah..at least regular income dah ada.. but he felt there was somethin missing.. until he realized he loves cooking and want to do somethin ke arah sana.. so dia ninggalin itu smua (Indo, regular income, etc etc) and came here..he started dr bawah banget, which is go to uni to do culinary arts..also, he does part time as well 5.30 in the morning!! dari yang nyuruh2 org skarang jadi disuruh2 org.. day by day, dia terus amazes me by his dreams n visions.. dia crita mimpi2 dia.. one day mo buka cafe/resto or kalo dia br dpt 'ilham' or ide2 baru ttg mimpinya dia, dia pasti cerita ke gw.. kadang gw sampe suka nebeng mimpinya dia since gw msh mencari mimpi gw juga hahaha.. I really believe one day I will see all his dreams come true... smentara gw akan trs blajar jadi his best supporter.. afterall behind evry great man kan there's a great woman rite?? hhahaha.. i don't mind being the great woman.. =p kadang ga kepikir how are we gonna get there.. cos cafe/resto kan butuh modal juga, belom yang laen2.. but at least we will try.. how it all will turn out, urusan Tuhan ajah...at least Andre is dare to dream... n I'm so so so jealous.. anyway..cheers to your dream babe!!! will see it one day =) and pada saat itu kta bisa melihat ke blakang n cuma bilang 'how great is our God' =)

skarang gw ga mo kalahh.. GANBATE!!!
*gila postingan ari ini panjang bangettt....*

unfinished business

kmaren ini gw smpt rapih2 kamar..n gw menemukan my unfinished project..
last year i was introduced to this activity called sewing :) i managed to make a coin wallet yang akhirnya juga ber-ujung ke christmas boxers for my hubby n brother's christmas present.. picture as below..hahaha..

* can you believe i made this? ^^ *

nah terus gw menemukan kantong buat andre's future handmade apron.. jadi kan critanya dia suka masak jadi pengen bikin personalised apron buat dia.. ini baru kntgnya doank yang jadi -_-" (this project agak ribet karena aku ngejait hurufnya satu2 pake tangan)



skrg abis ngeliat itu semua jadi kepengen ngelanjutin program menjahit gw.. a few things on the list:
1. finished Andre's apron
2. mo bkin bag buat temen gw (kl bagus yah buat gw hahaa)
3. sarung bantal
dll dll

duhh mudah2an gw cukup niat utk menyelesaikan ini smua before the end of the year..

investment

One lovely Saturday, I had this conversation with my brother....

Brother: Lo, spatu lo banyak bgt sih..gila dah.. (sambil beres2 rak spatu)

Lolo: Iyah iyah..tp laen kl gw tau kok apa yg gw mau beli..Skrg gw mo invest ajah di medium heels shoes krn katanya gw cocoknya pake heels tp gw skrg punya ketinggian..ga bsa jalan di oklen.. kl medium kan lumayan bisa jalan.

Brother: Invest di shoes..orang mah invest di emas, property, bisnis.. ini investment di heels... (sambil geleng2)

Lolo... *bohlam moment n ketawa2*

gw langsung nyadar yg dia blg bener banget hahahaha.. tp kayaknya sbg wanita dah biasa bgt ga sih blg.. gw mo invest nih di LBD (little black dress) or gw mo invest di jaket yg bagus n bisa match ama byk baju.. hahahaha.. but i guess.. in the 'real' world these kind of things are not considered as investment..unless you are Imelda Marcos yg koleksi spatu lo bisa dijual mahal or artis super terkenal yg baju2nya bisa dijual selangit..
oh well.. i'm happy to be a woman.. ^^

today..

today..
i wake before you
i saw you there sleeping peacefully (i tried very hard not to mencet your nose!!)
suddenly..
an overwhelming feeling came in my heart
how grateful i am to have you next to me
how thankful i am that God gives me a chance to have you in my life
my prayer..
that i can wake up every morning next to you for the rest of our life
yes marriage life is not always easy
but at least i'm doing it with the best person for me.. :)

aku harap..kamu slalu menjadi org pertama yang aku liat setiap pagi aku membuka mataku..

*fyi, akhirnya gw tetep mencet idungnya dia abis ga tahann..too tempting!!hahaha..

wat a morning!!!!

hari ini by 9.20 gw dah...
1. turun tangga dr lantai 18, ada fire evacuation!!
2. jalan dr rmh k kntr -> kantor k rumah -> and balik lagih rumah ke kntr.. (mind you jalanan di oklen inih naek turun n by the time gw smp kantor lagih, i was sweating.. )
there you go my exercise of the day..

now i'm ready to sleep again hahaha..

akhir2 ini gw merasa suka ga fit bgt.. sakit punggung, dada juga agak2 suka sesek..cepet capek..knapa yahh..hmmmm..or is it tanda2 penuaan?? T_T
need to go back into exercise prontooo!!

night of cooking

Udah berapa lama ini gw ngidam banget ama kue yg namanya nastar. and the funny thing is it's not even my favourite.. but somehow gw lg pgn bgt makan tuh kue. akhirnya dng niat hati, gw mencoba bkn deh.. tdnya udah banyak yg nawarin mau temenin bikin sih, tp gw pikir udah lah coba sendiri ajah, abis kalo janjian2 gituh kan lama..musti pas dua2nya ada waktu.. so here it is.. my 1st try on nastar.. hahaha..


Bentuknya sih ok lah..menyerupai aslinya haha..cuma ga ngerti kenapa pecah2 gituh yahh.. trs rasa sgala ok lha, nothin outstanding.. but i'm happy bcos this is my 1st try n i'm not that good at baking. dulu ajah gw bkn brownies dipikir biskuit ama org gara2 keras banget..biar dibilang enak juga tp jenis kuenya salah, gw sampe ga tau musti happy apa sedih..back to nastar, maren malem agak ancur pas dimakan tp pagi2 dah ok kok..mgkn maren masih panas ajah (girlss i wish u guys are here so u can try moi nastar!!!) trs donk resep yg gw bkn tyt utk bkn 2 toples!!! jadilah gw melanjutkan lagih ari ini. tp kyknya yg ini ntar mo dicoba dibungkus coklat..ntr tak fotoin lagih yah :)


Also kmaren malem gw bkn mie ayam jamur minus the jamur krn hubby lupa beliin hahaha.. critanya gaya gituh mo coba bkn yg di bakmi GM, ok lah inih.enak juga kok..

Benernya gw jarang masak, karena hubby kan chef, jadi dia yg masak deh.. tp pgn juga sih masak2 yg enak2 gituh buat dia..akhir2 ini kalo ngeliatin fb org2, yg br pada jadi istri..kyknya rajin bgt masakin suaminya, makanannya fancy2 bgt lagih.. i feel guilty man, ngerasa i haven't been a good wife >.< *duhh jd curcol*

skrg misi berikutnya pengen nyoba masak ngohiong bogor..tp td nyari2 di google blm ketemu yg sip. ngohiongnya pda beda ama yg biasa gw makan kyknya..jd bingung sy..but we'll see.. trs sempet kepikir juga mo sok2an kyk julie n julia gituh..beli buku trs kita ikutin masakannya..abis kdg bingung mo masak apa.. tp tkut makanannya ga doyan hahaa..oh wellll....

adventure

kayaknya hidup ini tanpa petualangan bakalan bosen banget kali yah.. tiap org kyknya butuh deh yg namanya adventures.. well at least i do.. n skarang lg longingg banget for an adventure.. hidup kyknya ginih2 ajah.. -.-" pagi bangun kerja, pulang yah masak nonton tv..weeken maen2 bntr n greja.. akhir taon holiday ke indo.. di jkt plg nge-mall2 doank.. trs balik lagih k sini n the same thing diulang lagih.. ini jadi ginih gara abis ngeliat foto temen gw yg ke flores.. random bgt ga sih ke floress?!?! hahaha.. dia ama temennya b2, trs pake tour guide 1 di sonoh.. trs yg ampe ke desa2, ketemu anak2 kampungg hahaha.. tp deep in my heart i think i'm jealous.. i think i need something like that..

trs ada juga temen gw yg baru ke London ama hubbynya.. OE gitu ceritanya hehee.. so excited for her.. trs Gil kan juga kayak bakalan start a new life soon di SG.. (am happy for u Gil ^^).. gw ..been in oklen for hmm..almost 10 years mungkin kali yahh..jarang lagih keluar nz. hahaha, plg ke indo ama oz 2x.. but dat's it.. n been living in the same place since 2002!! hahaha..

mgkn gw terdengar complaining, but i'm not (pembelaan diri hahaha..) but yah ga komplein sih bener..i'm happy kok di oklen. i feel blessed that i have a job, place to stay, have my hubby with me, n byk alasan2 laennya yg membuat gw bersyukur.. but i miss that adventurous feeling.. the excitement, the mixed feeling of ragu tapi pengen trs maju, feeling of mau mau takut n the feeling of achievement at the end of the journey. feeling of freedom, breaking free etc etc.. hahaha..

i'm a person yg sangat suka kepastian, but at the moment i miss ke-tidakpastian..it makes me strive for more, bikin worried but also expecting somethin bigger..
is it wrong to feel this way? do i even make sense? hajah2.. knapa jadi ginih.. nih mgkn pengaruh hormones jg.. 1st day of the monthly routines... (PMS not helping eitherr!!)
God, help me....