Monday, December 28, 2009

all the same

Everyone has problems
Everyone has deep, dark secrets
Everyone has weaknesses
In other words, everyone is the same
None is better or worse than the others

At the end of the day, what differentiate them are their view on life and what actions/decisions they take in life.
So, stop blaming your circumstances, stop blaming other people, stop your self pity
It’s YOU who can make the difference in your life
Change the things you can change and stop dwelling on/blaming the things you can’t change

It's time to GROW UP!

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

1 day before christmas

I always have this dream to help people around me. Doing a social work, voluntary job or even just a simple donation. However, I really really don’t know where to start. Yesterday I finally act on that dream. Me and A went to Pak n Save, we bought a few stuffs to donate to City Mission. I think we spent just over $70ish. What we donated might not mean a lot, remembering they have to prepare Christmas lunch for approx 2300 people and every single day, they have to give food to hundreds of people. But I think, it means something, as long as those foods go to someone’s stomach and can cure their hunger.

So how do I feel? Well, let just say I didn’t feel as good as I thought I would be. When I paid for those stuffs, the selfish side of me feel like screaming ‘NO’. I could get 3 or 4 clothes with that money. However, I managed to pay it and gave it to the right person. I thought it was going to be easy, especially since I’m dreaming to do for aagggeesss.. But at the end of the day, I feel happy and proud of myself. I can ignore my selfish side and knowing that my money is worth a lot more because it can give ‘life’ to some people (people need food to live don’t they) compare if I just spend it for clothes etc. I have more than enough clothes anyway.

Blessed to bless, afterall it’s easier said than done. But I believe, yesterday was just a beginning of many more to come. I just have to get used to it.

For now, Merry Christmas everyone =)

Monday, September 21, 2009

kehidupan dan kematian

About a week ago, ada temennya A yang meninggal secara mendadak, Dia baru aja tunangan dan 2 bulan-an lagih would celebrate his 26 bday. Bener-bener shocking. A 25 years old guy…siapa sih yang pernah mengira, apalagi status terakhirnya dia di facebook “Maen futsal dulu ah.. biar sehat” Tapi justu ternyata dia meninggal pas maen futsal.. tiba-tiba jatuh and pas dibawa ke rumah sakit, he’s passed away already..

Make me think, umur manusia..siapa yang tau sih.. usually orang-orang tua yang lebih deg2an urusan beginian, tapi berita yang terakhir itu mengingatkan saya kalau death can happen to anyone..

Trus, gw jadi mikir… what if dat happens to me.. gimana kalo misalnya sy meninggal dalam waktu dekat. What would people say about me? Not that ini pertama kalinya gw mikir, apperantly gw dah pernah nanya hal ini ke temen gw beberapa tahun yg lalu.. have I done enough? Have I make my marks in this world? In people’s life? Or justru gw malah dikenal sebagai orang yg menyebalkan and ngga lama lagih dilupakan orang..
So, what is it really important about life so that later on when I’m gone, I know that I have made my marks somewhere somehow…

Lalu gw juga mikir, life after death.. one day if we’re leaving this life, do you where you’re going? For me, I know where I am going.. Some young people I know, mereka suka cuek, mreka cuma bilang yah nikmati ajah hidup, ntar kalo udah tua baru deh bertobat.. Hahaha..well the above example prove that we can’t really plan our death..so, if right now, detik ini juga usia kita di dunia ini habis, are you ready to face whatever next?

Just remember those 2 things.. what have you done in your life that makes people remember you and do you know where you’re going after death? I mean really really know..
It’s very interesting..

Monday, September 7, 2009

if only i could turn back time....

Akhir-akhir ini saya menyadari deh, kayaknya banyak hal di dalam hidup ini yang dulu gw anggap bener (masa2 sok tau n sok pinter) dan ternyata I was wrong. Maybe this is another part of the growing up process kali yah. Hahaha.. Hal yang paling penting yang gw pelajari adalah… listen carefully to your parents!! Most of the things they say itu pasti bener dan kalaupun ngga, bukan berarti mereka salah. Mungkin kita ngga mengalami hal itu, karena mereka dah kasih tau kita. Parents say things untuk kebaikan kita cos afterall mereka ngga mau kita susah etc etc.. Kadang mungkin terkesan overprotected or kebawelan, but AGAIN.. it’s for our own good!

If only I could turn back timeee…..
1. gw akan more listen n more respect n more sayang ke papa mama saya.. pokoknya more more more dehh..

2. Gw ga akan mengandalkan hal-hal lain di dunia ini selain Tuhan.. pendidikan, pekerjaan, temen, uang, pacar, suami, dll..ngga ada yang bisa diandelin selain God Himself. Everything else can pass away and ‘ninggalin’ kita, ga ada yang kekal, selain Tuhan sendiri. He should be our everything

3. Sy akan lebih berhati2 dalam berbicara.. not every1 has to know everything..n most importantly, not every1 can be trusted!!!

4. Gw akan tetep berusaha menjadi orang yg baik hati.. tapi gw juga akan belajar untuk berkata ‘tidak’ – baik hati not mudah dimanfaatkan

5. Gw akan less jealous of other people life – hahaha.. afterall mungkin dari luarnya kelihatan indah dll, buat siapa yang tahu benerannya. You’ll never know

6. Gw ngga akan membanding2kan hidup gw dengan hidup orang lain – maksudnya, mungkin ada ukuran dunia tentang sesuatu hal, hal yang lazim/normal.. tapi mungkin hal yang lazim/normal itu ga do-able buat kita. It’s OK! Bukan berarti nanti hidup kita akan lebih buruk daripada orang lain. Mungkin jalan kita ajah berbeda, tapi soal berhasil atau tidak, I guess it depends on us

7. Ngga mau and ngga usah ikut campur urusan orang lain – kayak yang sampe kepikiran2 banget.. jangan2 orangnya sendiri ajah ngga peduli, ngapain gw yang musti sibuk2 sendiri ngurusin urusan dia. It’s a must to be a good listener but it’s ok to stay way

8. DO NOT even try to change people. Only God can change people. Do what you usually do in front of them, tapi ga usah abis2in waktu n tenaga ngomongin mereka, ngomel2in mereka etc, seperlunya ajah. Ntar kalo mereka mau berubah, pasti berubah koq dengan sendirinya.

9. Choose who I want to surround myself with because it may influence who I am and my future. Contoh: kalo gw berada di skitar org2 yang suka males2, maen2 terus, medioker.. gw akan jadi kayak gituh. But if I surround myself with hard-working, diligence people yang slalu mau yg terbaik n wouldn’t settle for more, gw juga pasti kebawa kayak gituh.. so, be careful who you spend your time with!

I could have made lot of mistakes in the past, but I’m planning to not add items to the list…. I want to be a better person..for me and for others around me.

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

ToXics

I think I’m on the edge of being toxicated…

by the selfishness of the world
by the money-minded environment
by the self-righteous culture
by the i-can-have-it-all-now belief
by the enjoy-life-forget-everything-else habits

I just have to make sure I take my most important daily ‘vitamins’ so I don’t get toxicated.

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

YEYYY US!!

Today we just saved $150.. woohhoo..yey us! Jadi ginih ceritanya, A kan kirim barang dari Indo.. nah terus DHL dudul, ada masalah teh bukannya nelpon kita, malah didiemin!!! Sampe satu waktu kita nelpon mereka karena barangnya ga sampe2. nah ternyata, kita harus isi formulir.. Udah donk kita isi formulirnya..eh udah bbrp hari kemudian baru bilang, kalo ternyata ini tuh have something to do with Customs n kita have options, mau mereka urusin atau urus sendiri (ngomong kek dari pertama).. Kalo diurus mereka, kita harus bayar $150 and kalo urus sendiri gratis.. Kebetulan mereka ada cabang di Anzac Ave, just a few doors from our apartment. Kemaren sih gw dah mumet abis n sangat tempted untuk bilang, ‘ya udah deh bayar ajah..cape ga selese2’ But then, when I talked to A, dia bilang dia mo tanya agennya dulu sgala..terus pokoknya somehow akhirnya aku decide untuk urus sendiri..

My goodness, it took me an hour to get that done. The guys are very nice tho!!! 2 THUMBS UP for those cutoms guys on Anzac Ave. Very helpful!! Ada this 1 guy, Daniel Wrightson, dia nelponin DHL gara2 ternyata ada 1 surat yang harusnya DHL kasih ke gw, tp ga dikasih donk..SUCKS! and he got hung up twice sama org DHLnya!!! He’s very nice, not like many other customer service persons.

Yah pokoknya @ d end, I got the paperwork I need and yey, the package has been cleared dr customs.. Last words, we just saved $150!!! Remember, money saved is money earned..

Thursday, July 9, 2009

The 1st one

Hi all..

Finally gw membuat juga blog di sinih. Dulu sih ada di windows live, tp biasa deh gara2 agak gaptek jadi agak lupa caranya balik ke sono lagih. hihihi...
Benernya dari dulu dah pengen nulis2, tapi ngga ngerti gimana caranya.. Sekarang harus semangat belajar pelan2.. tp saya sudah ada guru yg bisa ditanya anyway sih.. hehehe..

Duhhh lagih sedih banget nih..melow2 blue2 gitu deh..
lagi pengen hape baru - tp sayang, terus tepatnya ngga ada yang bener2 disukain juga. tertarik sih sm si 3Gs, tapi koq reviewnya jelek2 yah..tadi ada yang bilang bisa overheating lagih tuh hape, dah kayak apaan ajah! lagian gw pengen doank BUKAN butuh..

terus tadi baru menyadari kebiasaan buruh gw yg berantakan. hix.. wouldn't it be nice if i'm a lot tidier.. tadi lagih iseng2 nyari nih satu surat, terus ga ketemu. terus sekarang gw jadi parno deh takut suratnya ilang atau kebuang. Tapi harusnya sih ada somewhere around here..huhuhu..

Arrggghhhh..wat's wrong with me..maybe i just need time to sleep.. -.-